Hello,
I have had some great yesterdays.
Monday,
Ceddy was at Gymnastics and he got me in trouble... so I had to do hand stand push ups. I got up to forty and collapsed.*Sighs* I have alot of people coming to my recital. Most of them are going to be people I don't even know. Ergh! I am so nervous. We just got our Jazz routine finished and I have a few parts where I need to touch up on... and the recital is the 22nd of this month. AAh!
Tuesday,
I did absolutely nothing all day Tuesday.
Tuesday afternoon, my uncle called and said they were on their way down here to visit us. Well they got here and... they caught the alligator in our pond(that's right in our backyard). LMao! It's not that big... Hmmm.. maybe I should post the picture I took of iton DA. I dunno it's not that good. lol. And that's about all that happend Tuesday.
Wednesday,
I finally got to sleep in. *Sighs* THat was a relief.
That afternoon my ubcle and his crew went to Panama while my mom and I stayed home and babysat their daighter Brena. I have an awesome picture of her I am going to post on DA. And yes, I took it. Lol. Wednesday night, I went to church and played football with a beer bottle. Lmao! It was hilarious.
ANd I can't tell you what's going to happen today so... I'll save it for tomorrow. Oh! But I can tell you that we might be going to the homeschool meeting today. *Sighs* I don't know if I want to go. Hanzi will be there and I think I'm alittle jealous of him. Lol.
Well, I better stop here so I can save some words for tomorrow. Lol.

Aliitle nervous with a dab of jealousy,

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Hello there. x]

I had so much fun Saturday!! I was woken up(at 7:30 a.m.) by a phone call asking to see if I was going to help with a carwash. Well, I thought and thought and I decided to go. I went and had a blast!! I want to thank EM&em and RayRay for inviting me!! I love you guys!
We only washed 10 cars... but it felt like a million(because most of them were big and dirty). THe best part was when we got to hold the signs up near the road. Oh! We had this thing in the Piggly Wiggly parking lot. Ok, back to what I was saying... the best part of the whole thing was holding the signs up near the road... we got three semi-trucks to honk at us(with the little hand motion thingie) and lots of whistling. It was fun... until my dad showed up. Lmao! When he left we decided to let the little kids hold the signs. Lol.
I got sunburnt... Lol. But I had fun getting sunburnt! When I got home... I was greeted by a really good friend of mine, Tink (not her real name). She asked me to teach her how to do a front handspring on the trampoline. So, I spent the rest of my afternon teaching her how to do a front handspring. lol. She never got it either. Oh, well.
*sighs*
Yesterday wasn't really a ... happy day. I was feeling crabby and I didn't really want to go anywhere. I went to church that morning and listened to my dad preach a good sermon and then that afternoonm we went to a different church to hear my dad preach again to people he hardly knew. Lmao! He did an awesome job! Hanzi called while I was gone and we got back too late... so I couldn't call him. I had my cell phone and I thought about calling him on my cell but I don't have that many minutes and so I decided not to. I will call him later on this afternoon. Maybe, after gymnastics. Hopefully Ceddy will be at Gymnastics. He wasn't there last week because we were taking pictures and plus he was sick. lmao!
Well, I'm going to stop here.
Thanks for reading!

A flexible body with a cramped heart,

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Yesterday was a very beautiful day! The clouds were gray and the air was warm and wet. I love that kind of weather.
We went to the homeschool meeting and it was fun. We played basketball and football. Oh! Hanzi came!! He came right in the middle of our basketball game. *Sighs* He fit right in. I feel as if he fit in more than I did. He introduced himself ... so I didn't have to do that. And he made really good friends with... 'Mickey Mouse'. That's scary because 'Mickey Mouse' is the guy that I'm starting to like now and if I tell Hanzi that... he will try to do what he did last time his gf broke up with him for his bestfriend. Ergh! Why is it like this?? I hate LOVE!!
I'm going to calm
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The Lock-In was canceled because most of the guys weren't coming. I don't see why they canceled it just because they aren't going. I could've brought enough people to fill that place up. *Sighs* All of my plans for the weekend are ruined because of them. Lol. Now I have to go to Wal-Mart with my mom and dad. I hate going to Wal-Mart with them... they take FOREVER! I hate crowds... I hate shopping and I hate LOVE!!! ERGH! I better stop typing before I get really mad and take it out on y'all. Lmao!

Just another faded heart with alittle tear,

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Hello again. *Sighs*
I have had some pretty boring days this week. Usually we have tons of stuff happening but so far.... nothing has come up.
Oh! I get to go to the lock- in Friday! WooHoo! Em&em was so excited when I told her. Lmao!
Tomorrow, we are going to the homeschool meeting and my mom invited Mrs. T (Hanzi's mom) to come with her two boys (Hanzi and Johnny). Mrs. T called last night saying that she is going to try her best to make it to the homeschool meeting. *sighs* I'm not looking forward to that. I am going to be the only one there that knows him. I'm going to have to introduce him(unless he introduces himself). Ergh! Hopefully I'll get sick before then... lmao! HAnd over some snot rags and cough on me unto you puke! xD
OMG! I can't believe my gymnastics teacher.... she gave us those small little bitty costumes to wear for the recital. And they are pink! Ergh! I am supposed to do flips in that thing. I'm going to have wear Tough SKin to get them to stay in place, so they won't ride up. Lmao! The good thing is... I'm wearing tights. So.. that might help alittle.
Well, I better stop typing before I poor my whole life out on ya. ROFLMFAO!

A little smile with a twisted mind,

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P.S. THanks for your support!! x]

Lauren broke up with Hanzi. If you read some of my previous journals you'll find out who Lauren is. I think he's going to ask me back out again... *Sighs* I don't know what to tell him... Ergh! I'm so confused! Last night we talked for a long time over MSN and he kept showing me this song called "Nobody knows " By Kevin Sharp. Finally I listened to it and kept listening to it... Here are the lyrics...

I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
Now I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can see it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

1-The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you

And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
Now I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside, and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake, its a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night
As if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still


*Shivers* Scary... I don't know if I still like him like that... Alot of people have been telling me that he's just using me and that I'm just his chick on the side. I don't know... He ... he... ERGH! I hate life!! I don't know what to do or what to say or how to say it.
I'm not mad at him it's not his fault it's actually my fault for getting myself in this shit. I'm the one that told him I liked him first and he's the one that told me he liked me back. *Sighs* I have no idea what to do... please... if you have anything that will help... please... let me know!!

Cofused depression covered by a smile,

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